Dear God,

I'm really tired of being ill. Whether it is stress, itchiness, allergies, asthma, colds, or even reactions from too many frackin' drugs in my system.....I'm tired. Please let me feel better, soon. Please?

Next time can we skip the song and dance?

I'm pretty sure, based off of the crazy nerve-wrackingness that is occurring, that doctor's should be required to give more information than, "Something has changed. You need another invasive procedure." Ugh. Fuck. What? Why? What changed......will doing this procedure for a second time solve it? Should I be worried about cancer? Something else? Is this going to cause problems if/when I decide to become reproductive. Stupid people not answering questions due to it being a phone call. At least the appointment is in early November. Only two or three weeks to continue going crazy and making myself nervous.